Soon. Its gonna to be september. Soon. Its gonna be a year where everything had happened. Well. This gonna to be an emo post. I guess?

Last year this time, everything is seemingly good. Well. Seemingly good. But behind everything was just some foolish thinkings going on. Something fishy on. Something unexpected on.

After a year, i then realise that having a posession is not everything. Its the thoughts and feeling that counts. Things may not be as smooth sailing as what you expect it to be. Things may not be as easy as you thought that it would be easy to achieve. Things may not be expected that that will happen in your life. Things may not be ... ...

Loving someone as a friend, as a lover may not be that that person must be in your posession. Loving someone as a friend, as a lover may not be that they must be by your side.
Loving someone as a friend. as a lover may not be that they only belongs to you.
Loving someone as a friend, as a lover may not be that you must see each other everyday.

The one that you spent most amount of time together now may not be the one that understands you the most. The one that is seemingly trueful and big hearted may not be the one that will stand by your side when something 'big' happen.

A true friend is the one.
Who still knows what you are thinking about even though the time spend together is lesser that usual.
Who cares for you, understand your woes and sorrows even without you saying it.

I believe that there is a telepathic power between true friends that whenever you are with them, the mask that you have, the armor you carried, will automatically shield off.
The power is so strong that even maybe ten years down the road, you will still feel that.

Suddenly i realise. it really takes a lot to fall in love, love someone.
The trust that you need in your partner, that even after a soured love, you will still trust that person that the same kind of things would not happen.

Seriously. I'm not sure whether is he saying the truth. When i saw her in school. I was so afraid that his revival of that love was not from his heart. I'm afraid he would cheat her again. But is that really true? I thought she have left. Yet, i see her there. What's that ? i am not sure.

Tomorrow will the 8th year that they are together.

So. What's that. Ting, so now you know why did i hid behind you when we walked out of the office. I am afraid of her.

But because of you all.

You all will always be in my heart . forever.